life

Ok, so i am new to this whole blog thing but thought i'd give it a try...if you know me then you might know how rough it has been the past little while.... Wow where do i begin....just when you think you have life pretty much all figured out it pretty much throws you a curve ball, in April of this year my husband passed away suddenly and very unexpected ....it has been a very hard thing to have to go through for me, let alone our boys...i know how devastated i have and do feel i can't even imagine how my boys feel...:( I met Paul in July of 1999, we clicked right off the bat, he was the one i just knew it, i thought for sure we were going to grow old together, i never in a million years thought that i would be a widow at 27 And that my boys would lose their dad at ages 6 And 2. while pauls time here was cut way to short he thought me and i think everyone that knew him alot, He was a great person, he was always trying to help people out and do good deeds for even complete strangers, like giving someone a few bucks or help push someone off the road, and he was always willing to help my parents out in any way possible, as well as help his mom and grandma. He was also a very very hard worker he would never pass up a chance to go do dry wall or any work for that matter, but most of all he was a great and very proud dad, and awesome husband, I miss and think about him everyday...! Kayson is still so young that my heart just aches for him to never have gotten the chance to know his dad, and i hope and pray that Dylan is old enough to remember all the good memories they shared together...i know that i cherish every moment of the past 11yrs and know that i will make sure our boys know how good of dad they have....with that being said i have had alot of frustration that such a good person isnt with us anymore, there needs to be more Pauls in the world.....!